losing faith

u say i am selfish
i think i am
to think of the story
from the beginning
it is progressing
i am anticipating
the pain that it will bring
i can do nothing
but to wait
for it will happen
i can almost feel it
and i,
am anticipating

it's weekend again

my prof said sad ppl write alot better, tht's y we we studied alot about writers' lives which ended with suicide.. haha... ok.. i'm not goin to write about my jap studies lecture. so what i'm trying to say is, i realised i write when i dun feel too good.

just came back from dinner with may-the-girl-next-door.. it's always comfortable to talk to her, and i could tell her alot of things i dun normally talk about..

she asked me a question, which i gav a very sad answer with a laugh.. lol.. then she turned serious suddenly said, why u said that and laughed, it makes me feel bad..

it sets me thinking.. whoa... i never thought i sound that sad..MAYBE i'm so good in hiding my feelings that even i myself dun realise i'm sad.. ok.. maybe i think too much.. haha..

so anyway.. it's a another lonely and boring and routine weekend again..

i love weekends!

it's a good good friday=)

it's always good to be away from school physically and mentally once in a while.. and i felt like i haven't do that for months.. LOL..

on this very relaxing good friday.. i decided to touch nothing related to school..but in some point of time, i failed..

the day started with a sweet morning call =)

in the afternoon, my and sexy sis went to lunch with cousin-the-intelligent in billy bombers.. it's funny how much we hav to share about singapore's difficult life.. haha... how singapore is a boring and expensive place for us kampong ppl to live in.. how we missed to good old mamak culture back in home..

then, for the first time in 2 years of being here, i went NTU.. went to visit cousin-the-intelligent-professor-to-be's dorm.. hehe... and very happily disturbed his peaceful life for a few hours..

and of cos.. in a new and exciting place like this, cam whoring can't be avoided.. teehehe..

this is me with cousin-the-intelligent and his cap!

me, on the very intelligent desk..

cousin-the-intelligent who fits better on his intelligent desk.. lol

hehe.. this is me in intelligent cap..

so maybe i'll become more intelligent after today..ciao..



oh there's sth interesting..
haha.. this's got nothing to do with today.. but look at the gigantic slipper under my sis's foot!

cannot larrr.. i'm very guilty.. now where's my last week tutorial i haven't finish???

thurs nights

it's a love hate thingy between me n thurs nights.. i hav 3 days long weekend.. maybe thts y i hav too much time and energy to think too much..

there's so much to say.. yet.. i dunno wht to say.. i hav no luxury to be sad..

maybe it's because of the 2 eating instant noodles in the middle of night happily, or maybe it's the 2 sharing food in the cafe, maybe it's the bunch laughing and talking loudly beside me after class..

there're alot of times i wan to blurt out the words.. but i couldnt bring myself to.. i'm chicken.. cos i dunno if i can handle it..

it feels like u are on a dangling rope.. u know it cannot hold on for too long.. but yet.. u've hold on to it for so long..u cant bare to let go.. u once thought it was strong.. u once thought it will always hold strong for u.. now it will not anymore.. u took it for granted.. u never thought u needed it anyway.. now somebody else needed the rope.. in the end.. the rope is tired..

i know i shouldn't be.. but i can't help myself.. maybe it's time to make decision..

busted.. again

did not try hard enough? or, simply not good enough..

am goin to battle again today.

who is goin to take them all down?!! ME!!!

LOL!

心累了

好想逃到一个无地
在哪个地方
无人
无物
无罪
无牵挂
无名利
无是非
就自由我
好想休息一会儿
让我调整一下心情

突然间，我很想让心房放假

every now and then, there will be a moment that tiredness suddenly sat in not physically, but emotionally.. all of a sudden all tht mattered alot seems meaningless, all that once tried so hard to get hold on to seems beyond reach, it just feels like all the energy and time spent all the while is dissipated..

at times like this, a good sleep and an escapade would be great =)..

i need a break..

to the land of munmun

where everything is so simple, where there is no heartaches, where there is no need for hypocrisy..

i wish to escape, but i will stay because i know i can't..

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