it's a love hate thingy between me n thurs nights.. i hav 3 days long weekend.. maybe thts y i hav too much time and energy to think too much..
there's so much to say.. yet.. i dunno wht to say.. i hav no luxury to be sad..
maybe it's because of the 2 eating instant noodles in the middle of night happily, or maybe it's the 2 sharing food in the cafe, maybe it's the bunch laughing and talking loudly beside me after class..
there're alot of times i wan to blurt out the words.. but i couldnt bring myself to.. i'm chicken.. cos i dunno if i can handle it..
it feels like u are on a dangling rope.. u know it cannot hold on for too long.. but yet.. u've hold on to it for so long..u cant bare to let go.. u once thought it was strong.. u once thought it will always hold strong for u.. now it will not anymore.. u took it for granted.. u never thought u needed it anyway.. now somebody else needed the rope.. in the end.. the rope is tired..
i know i shouldn't be.. but i can't help myself.. maybe it's time to make decision..
