i'm so damn angry.. yes.. with some ppl but mostly, with myself.. i dun hav much character i know, never stand up for myself when people wrong me.. and because of my poor memory history i often couldn't be sure if i really did something wrong, which makes me hesitant to just push away all the responsibility, which as a result... i get blamed for EVERYTHING..
jus because i don't say anything doesn't i'm not mad.. i was trying to find ways to persuade myself to forgive people, and everytime i get mad at somebody, when they act friendly again.. yes.. i would soften up and convince myself.. maybe she didnt mean that? maybe it's just me.. or maybe he was jus not in a good mood.... which i think makes people think i'm a weak person and decided everyone can bully me.. wtf...and i hate myself for that..
i hate confrontations.. i can count the times i confront somebody because i think they do something wrong.. especially less to those whom i'm really close with.. jus because i care and am willing to live with it..but hell..some people are jus soo self-centred that they care nothing except for themselves by taking family for granted.. well.. i don't hope any bad on them.. but i would never pray for them..
to the stupid fucked up NUS business canteen western stall uncle.. screw you.. u're so sucked up just because u have a damn stall which sell pork, fish, chicken and beef that you can't even handle a friendly comment.. screw you.. u're damn pathetic..a
nd just because i keep quiet, doesn't mean you are right.. and just because i apologise.. doesn't mean i take up all the blame..and p/s.. sometimes i just don't feel sorry at all..so pardon me for not giving one when u expect me to..heck..i should really do a personality transformation, even canteen uncle wanna bully me..wtf
