Dear you

if you are reading this, i should feel alil comforted as i would feel that u still care, however little it is. all those accusations you made, I've been keeping quiet all this while. i wan to let you know that i've been reading, and it hurts every time but i still read it. and i sometimes do not understand why i allow all these lies when u act like you're the victim. i apologized, i tried to make truce, and finally i tried to shut myself out and u said it's all because of a boy. it jus proves all over and over again how much u know me. i stood by the side and see how much dissatisfactions u have against me. I never get it and you never would.

never have i made any counter comments cos i'm afraid it may bring an end to everything. i do this and openly because i have had enough. u said i hurt you, i wanna tell you, however much metaphor u think you are using, u hurt me too, badly. i am human too, i have my feelings. you expect me to get back to you after everything every blades u have stabbed into me with just that few lines i can't. people u have hurt get back to you because they love you and you love them. you can say i don't love you enough. maybe tht's true and i do not anticipate any puny place in your heart that can accommodate me.. maybe it's just the end.

it is from me. let's just stop hurting each other pseudo-secretly. we all know each other too well.