how did i end up getting that shoes that's 2 sizes bigger?

Beats the shit outta me.

Frustrations

Don't you just hate it when you thought you've gotten something and then the next thing you know, you've lost it again? And it always has to be this way. Fml.

options

'if u can't put mongolia on a wall then there are always a million other colours that you can use; if you can't pay phone bill then just write letters telling them. People forget they have options. And they forget those things really don't matter. They should concentrate on what they have and not what they don't have.'

-If You Could See Me Now, Cecelia Ahern

just before i sleep

I thought of the disturbing dreams on my previous sleep. They were a few completely different dreams, closely related to what is happening now. And funny thing is, this every single dream scared the hell out of me. Well, talking about not doing anything evil during the day.

1. I dreamed about being a spy, doing the 007 mission impossible stunts to steal important documents from my evil aunt. I got busted and the evil aunt with her already very very black hair and face (oh not to mention scary) transformed into a red eye monster. I heroine-ly guarded my bag with my life and hiding it in some place that nobody would look into (some cupboard upstairs in my grandma house) and, I made my escape. I woke up in cold sweats.

2. then there was this long lost friend, sitting beside her new found best friend. Completely ignoring my presence, she was chatting away with the long hair scary looking girl beside her. I was ordered to mop the floor (completely random) which stretches 4 storeys long. I kept moping the never ending floor while watching the girls talk their hearts away in envy. I woke up feeling completely bewildered.

3. I was talking to him just as usual, about school, about politics (well he does most of the talking in this area), about some interesting news we’ve stumbled upon, about books, about life. Then I remembered the question I’ve been dying to ask, and I asked. I waited for the answer. I woke up, never getting the answer.

4. with a bunch of friends I barely know, I danced on the table.. (lol nah that’s my imagination)

They say you dream what you’ve thought about during the day, I guess I have had eavesdropped too much of my mom’s conversation with her sister. It’s affecting my beauty sleep. :s

Ok, maybe it’s me who’s making me lose sleep when I decided to type this stupid piece when it’s clearly bedtime already.

Oh and I invented this new word for my sister. Bimnobo.

LOL.

Testing testing

I discovered this function of Microsoft where I can blog using Microsoft word! Woots!

home:)

it's a tradition to blog on every home-coming. i just got home today, welcomed by my ever welcoming home and family, well not really, my bro used vulgarities on me when i knocked on his door during his afternoon nap zzz (i seriously have no idea what's with guys and their stupid tempers -.-)

house internet been upgraded. wee!

we talked about friends on my way home. friends come and go. we are fated to lose some friends, it could be due to any other stupidiest thing, or even to some reasons u couldn't even recall. I am one of those who's terribly detached from the world, i'm never really a people person and am perfectly contented and comfortable with the few close friends i have. which, really explains why i have so little friends, cos sometimes i think i'd rather spend time with myself than to talk to other people that i'm not so close with. i'm just weird like that.

today, or rather, yesterday, when this conversation came up, i realised too, i did have a lot of friends that i have made during the past years but most of which i didnt care to keep in touch with. an invitation that i usually dont take seriously came up again today, and i'm glad i took it.

i've nearly forgotten how fun it was to be surrounded by people and laughters. it felt good. :)

ZOMG MID TERM BREAK!

are u not relieved when u are given a break when u're almost dead trying to pace up to what is expected of you? just for the record, i've survived (barely) 2 tests and 1 assignment this week. and also a project which was due on friday too, and which i was too busy to deal with.

so anyways tgimtb!

there's a tiny celebration today :D Look what we've gotten today!


my beauty regime :)

i likeeee

ahh, not from today but it's my favorite breakfast i made for myself just few days ago

*bliss* :)

ahhh who's this sexy lady? hmmmm

4.46am

it's a new record :D

Of today

Another weekend has passed by sooner than I have come to realize. I just came back from dinner and supper, wanted to take a shower but someone is outside and I don’t really know what to say or what to ask. So, I’ll just stay put till he or she gets back into their room.

Dinner at uncle’s house was fun, kids are really fun when they don’t cry and when you do not have to work around them. Jo was learning how to walk and I thought of my other cousin whom I love to talk to and who also loves Jo very much. I think he would be very happy if he gets to see that, but i guess that’s not very possible now isn’t it?

wanted to post some photos from just now but blogger's being a bitch again. I always can't post up photos nowadays, anyone shares the same problems? Anyways, the photos are cute, because kids are cute, when they like to camwhore, just like you. :)

photos i haven gotten the chance to post

i will go back again :)

after breakfast thoughts

I started the day hating electronics, I mean, what not to hate about them? they have serious mood-swings, and complicated, they made you can't live without them, they are the most spoilt creature on earth, and one trigger can make you lose everything u have valued so much for so long, just like that. Then I thought of the 4 plastic boxes in the cabinet back home, there were photo albums storing memories of a lifetime. I love flipping them through every now and then, the only thing is, memories stopped after secondary school years, because that was when digital camera existed. I remember taking 100000 photos because it didn't cost a thing, but most of them remain in digital forms, or, lost forever, just because, they are electronics.

There were a lot of dramas going on both back home, and this home in Singapore. It is really sad and ridiculous at the same time, that people who know each other for such long period of time fail to understand and love each other enough, to end up wanting to kill each other.

Then I remember the conversation I had yesterday after dinner, it made me realize how much I would withdraw from definitive statement, just simply because. But, I am happy the way it is, he is. :)

LONG DAY AHEAD

I'm so tired from lack of sleep zzz. It's confirmed chopped I'm at least 10 times more stupid than normal people because i still haven't finished writing the thing after spending like 20 hours on it.

I'm awake. I'm awake. I'm awake and kicking.

090909

It’s 1.40am and I’m barely halfway through my public policy write-up. The bitter taste of hirameki tea reminds me of some 1 year ago when I was mugging for exams. Oh, which reminds me, that tea is one year ago, it might have already expired. Oh wellz.

The date is 090909 today, it’s a special day :)

I went to watch the time traveler’s wife today, no, yesterday. It was a story about a man who time-travels to both the past and the future, but the sad thing is, he has no power over when and where he’s going. It must have been horrible to have to watch his mother died over and over again and could do nothing to stop it. Then there’s his wife, whom he had met during his time travels, whom he has proposed with—‘for all my life I have wanted nothing as I ‘m so afraid of losing, but with you, it’s all too late, will you marry me?’ when she woke up from her sleep. haha, prolly not even the exact words but it’s something like that. Romantic isn’t it? But too bad she has to bear with his constant random disappearance.

Is it worse to be the one who constantly leaves, or the one who constantly witnesses another leaves?

Hmm. I dunno, I guess I haven’t been the latter one. :p

Ich bin sehr mude