saturday night in

There was this one fine day, a girl who spent her past 4 precious years doing her degree, with her fellow colls (one of them an uncle) were eating lunch at some restaurant...

uncle says: u know, i really don't believe in all those certs, what are those degrees and certs holders? the previous girl held an ACCA, so what?

the girl who spent her past 4 precious years doing her degree, under her breath, retorts: SO? like HELLO?! ppl move on la! but u're stuck here at 45 year old!

LOL okla that girl who spent some years getting her degree is me laa haha.. i think i'm getting more and more evil.

it's 1.10am now, and i'm still up working on my.. work.

i've been so living with the motion lately, most of the time, my mind just wanders off to one of those junctions. Sometimes i really do not know what am i doing. is it normal? to have so many things that you don't mind doing, some that you really hate doing but nothing practical that you really want to do?

in you i find my solace :)

omg i finally did it!

how how how??

been so long...

wooots! I'm back to the virtual world again. familiar much? haha..yes i stole that from taz la....

anyways i think i have a major update to do..

1. work hasn't been very exciting, and... nope shouldn't talk about work here.. zz

2. I am an official graduate :D:D

3. I went back to Ipoh last week, and it makes me realize how much i miss home and how much i love being fussed over by my parents:)

4. I got myself a new pair of specs. LOL! no kidding. my mom says: eat until so old then only become short sighted.

5. I spent more than 10% of my monthly pay on medical bills this month FML

6. I'll be on MC tomorrow and yes, am i glad that i got flu viral. :D

7. been procrastinating on my studies SO MUCH!

ok.. so this is it. every time i stop blogging for a while, my ability to write deteriorate. I can't make complete and cohesive sentence anymore.

hmmm.. do u wanna see me with my specs?

maybe next time heh!

Why is it so effing difficult to claim things when those things are yours in the first place? And it makes you seem like you’re begging for your money to be returned to you, EVERY FUCKING TIME.

bear with the pink background. I have been containing this recent pink fanatic in me for far too long.

My recent conversation with mom saddened me. Bonds that we would have never thought it would ever break, broke with not a single hope of mending back. Vengeance between parents and kids, brothers with sisters and relatives with relatives and generations with generations broke out like a fire in the bush.

I try to understand from my most rational and just Libran point of view, it all doesn't make sense. and i think it never will.

failed blog transformation

garrrrr this is so ugly :(

so anyways, I am stuck in somebody's house while he's happily getting his routine hair grooming now.

I am a working auntie now and work has not been satisfying at all :(. Dealing with mundane documentations every single day can really demoralise your spirits. Sometimes I looked back and tell myself, it was exactly what I wanted. A job without stress! but man! what a mistake!

Well, it's kind of comforting lol, to know that most of the people I know are complaining about their work. maybe now it's the only time when we really know that the route that we have chosen several years back might not be what we wanted after all.

I remember when I was little, when I still think very very mighty highly of myself, I would imagine myself in some sexy professional work wear, sitting in an office(instead of cubicles) immersing myself in work and have a great social life while earning enough to buy a house for myself by the age of 30. LOL. not really happening right? it's time for a backup plan.

depressing thoughts a side, guilty thoughts have been eating my conscience alive. I've been spending wayyyy too much lately. So much so that every time I buy something I have to hide inside my bag so that my scary sister don't interrogate me and release my conscience eating guilt to bury me alive. zz. and the worst thing is, my job doesn't really require me to dress up. LOL. damn. why is reality so much different from imaginations?

so yea, I'm officially left with nothing in my account and 100 dollars in my wallet until my next pay comes in 2 weeks time. If you love me, please make me stop.

next up, hmm, updates of my whereabouts?

1. have I not updated about my Bali short trip? it was a nice getaway, minus off the scalding hot sun, the pushy hawkers, and the dirty side of the beach. haha. yea so what are we left with? ah!! fuck cannot upload pictures!!! what have I done to my blogger.

haih. I will salvage this and come back to finish this post. DAMN!

1st day of work

There's really a reason why people call them killer heels. It hurt so much that you literally can't walk.

And yea, that's my impression of my 1^st day of work. Pain kills memory too.