unsurmounted-ness

it's the monster called insecurity that strikes again. there's always this feeling that creeps up every now and then, warped amongst the many happiness, haunting me, pervading me. I looked at others, made up from different DNAs, and wonder why can't I be as smart, as pretty, as bubbly, as lively, as hardworking or even as loud. then, taking a peek over the telescope to the future, I saw what's left is all vague and nothingness. I dwelled on the sudden dull distressful hollowness that haven't been felt for quite a while. As i sighed, he came, enveloped me with the warmth of his. It's this heart-filling explosions that forced me out from the abrupt depressive attack. i know, from here, I shall go on. :)