Yet, another call again. but this time, I turned them down. Not because I've already found a job that I want, but because till I find out what I want, I don't want to jump into anything again. last week, a job offer called, presenting me with a much better package in terms of paycheck. It didn't take much for me to brush it off, myself, my sister and my mother. I remembered how much I hated it when I was doing similar things some years back. But then after a few days, it hit me again, do I really not want that? Or I was just being afraid?
I read a lot lately about the importance of finding your passion in life. I watched Grey's Anatomy where people there are so in love with what they do. I talked to mer bout it and he said most real life people are like me the lost sheep who don't really know what they want, even when some appear to, even when some thought they do.
There's something a doctor said in the drama, 'so what if you don't know how you want to live your life. nobody does, and not everybody gets the chance. You have a life, and so GO live your life.'
I tried to imagine life 5 years later because they say when you don't know, just LOOK into the future. The thing is, what if u lose your ability to even imagine what you want to do?
The only comfort is, at least I don't see myself hating that job that I have accepted to guts. Well, not yet.
One last question, is that really so important?
Sorry for the rambling, I am in a deep state of confusion.
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